Uncertain Certainty.....!!!!

बस यूही

2011-03-24T12:22:00.002+05:30

अंधेरे में खूद अपने साएको साथ छोडते देखा है,
बीच सफर साथीको अपने रास्ता बदलते देखा है,
उलझन है किसे हमसफर कहे हम अपना,
हमने तो जनाजे परभी अक्कसर लोगो को कांधा बदलते देखा है.

Unanswered

2010-09-21T13:43:00.004+05:30

For past few days wired questions are haunting me. I am unable to answer those.
you may say that theses are too generic questions everyone has faced these but, I would like to ask if those questions are so generic why aren't there any answers available, why it is said that everyone has to find there own answers, if it is so then how can those be same questions.

I have a beautiful apartment in a posh locality (it's rented though) seventh floor with a beautiful view. initial few day after I moved in I was happy but, then one day one question just questioned my happiness. There were people, people all around I realized they all were same except the faces were different. So called settled in life with heavy bank account four wheelers nice owned apartments, wife / Girlfriend / kids they were all the same, living the same life. If someone puts a mask on there face even they wont recognize themselves neither their families will. Then why is that everyone want to follow the same race why everyone wants to be the same rat.

Unfortunately progress of a person is measured by the amount of money in the bank, the apartment, the earnings all so materialistic but, not by the amount of contribution s/he has done to the society, forget society I would say how much of life the person lived as they wished.

Half of the life is spent living for someone else trying to be someone else, competing and running endlessly unknown where to reach.

Sometimes I feel I am becoming one of those faces....

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2010-09-21T12:51:00.000+05:30

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Back to Blogging

2010-09-06T13:17:00.002+05:30

After almost a year I am back to blogging.
More to come soon.

keep watching

After 5th Sep

2010-08-20T11:17:00.001+05:30

Will start blogging after 5th September....
C U Soon.

Money Money Money

2009-12-09T14:01:00.001+05:30

I received a mail from one of my friend about a 36 years old guy who was working in US earning 2 Lakhs per month with 40 Lakhs of saving, one fine day decides to quit his job come back to country and then start an NGO, nice thought and Kudos to him. The lifestyle he has chosen is his choice he was dreaming about it when he was in 11th grade and finally he did it.

Now what I have to say to the sender of the mail and other who deny my thoughts is
He was able to do that because he had earned the amount he needed.
He could get the land and/or other infrastructure because he had enough money to buy it.

“Money isn't everything. It's just most everything." --Nica Clark
“If you would like to know the value of money, go and try to borrow some."

Remember what Oscar Wilde said “When I was young I used to think that money was the most important thing in life. Now that I am old, I know it is.”

Even to do social good in this era you need unsocial element called money.
With money in your pocket you don’t fear hunger.

Gandhi taught us non violence but what we did printed his photograph on the biggest cause of violence ‘Money’ see thats the power of money

and how can one forget that ‘When money speaks truth keeps silent’

we all need money it’s a fact even if none agrees to it.
Don’t forget that we are living in the commercial world.
Enough of money talks, only thing I say is “I like money, my own money”....!!!!!

Kaminey.....!!!!

2009-08-31T02:00:00.008+05:30

One more creation from the maker of The Blue Umbrella, Maqbool, Makdee and Omkara, the films which made mark of their own comes; Kaminey.. But, Kaminey does not fit in the league of these films. Though the film is bit different from the common bollywood stuff it does not speak for Bharadwaj. Guljarji’s lyrics blended with some loud and crispy editing is all about most awaited Kaminey..
It’s the same typical bollywood drama tried to be portrayed in Hollywood style this is what makes film different from bollywood masala . The film starts with a pace but looses the speed in between.The film's plot is based on coincidences. This is the story of two separated brtothers Guddu and Charlie, whose roles have been splendidly performed by Shahid Kapoor. And revloves around the film's characters chasing a guitar containing cocaine worth 10 crore. This reminds of the old movie 'Kismat'staring Joy Mukherjee, where everone is behind the guitar for similar reason.

Charlie wants to earn money by fhort-Cut (short cut) his mantra is there are only two way to earn money one is fhort cut (short) other is small fhort cut (short cut). And Guddu who has his whole life plan written and planned wants to do something for society and work in a NGO but his life changes when he realizes that his girlfriend Sweety (adorable Priyanka chopra) home science topper is pregnant. she is sister of goon and politician Bhope Bhau enacted by Amol Gupte, who odium the north Indians who have come to Mumbai.
Sweety insist on marrying and she arranges for the same, it is when Bhope’s gang come into sight and stops the marriage. The duo manages to escape but, on the way they have some heated argument and guddu is held by the police in confusion for the crime his twin Charlie has done. This is where all the mainstream drama starts. As all bollywood sagas have happy endings Kaminey too ends on a happy note. Though shown lot of violence.
It’s a very well crafted screenplay but you can guess the upcoming scene very often, some sequences are very loose and are stretched unnecessarily like the scene where Guddu and Charlie meets face to face for the guitar. With lot of marathi and bangali dialogs in between sometimes it becomes difficult to understand. This film is sheer mass entertainer. Bharadwaj is exllect in casting and doing justice to the characters Shaid Kapoor has done a great work. So did Priyanka Chopra, she tried to keep the marathi ascent but at certain point she missed it. Amol Gupte is superbly outstanding. The other notable characters are Inspector Lele (Hrikesh Joshi) and Ganesh (shashank Shende) Mikhail(Chandan Roy Sanyal)

In short kaminey is no different film, do not watch it with high expectations it does not stand up to the mark it’s only one time watch film with lot of publicity efforts film manages to pull the crowd but fails to satisfy the audience. Hope to see better work from Vishal Bharadwaj next time..…!!!

The Pungent

2009-08-06T13:54:00.003+05:30

please dont't
be nice to me
I cannot reciprocate
don't try to be rancid
evil inside me
wont spare you.
I am rotten
fallen apart
let me lay
on the muddy floor
I am waiting for those,
wicked beaks
to tear my flesh
and let the pungent
blow away....!!!!

Drop...!!!

2009-07-15T00:42:00.003+05:30

Drop by drop,
dripping on my forehead
drowning me
down under.
The warm breath,
on my neck
and the shivering lips
drowns me deep.
The closer I hold
The deeper I go,
the ocean cannot drown me
when I am in her arms.
but rolling tear
Drowns me.
I drown every night
to be reborn the next.

The Feminine Agony....!!!!!

2009-06-18T12:37:00.004+05:30

After nine months and nine days
I thought I would be free
to see the light,
to feel something more
around.
The fragrance, the love
The embrace.

The ninth day
when I saw the bright light,
the man turned his face
the women was depressed
the silence prevailed.
I was made to cry,
I remember the pinch
of those rough fingers
and no one cared
about the scares those left behind.

Ninth year I remember
when the other male
took away my smile,
breaking my doll
I was told not to cry
I have to live
the way it is.

At nineteen,
I could feel the same pinch
but now eyes overtook the fingers
penetrating more
deeper.
I was told to ignore
Because that's the way it is.

At every instance
I was made quiet
I had no rights
to say how I feel.

Days passed
so did years
the man who turned his face,
I left his home.
who broke my doll
was not with me anymore.

I entered the new cage.
the new foible.
I learned to be quite
but now,
I have to break the silence,
it cant replicate
I want my 'Daughter'
to be a ‘free bird’

My perfect date.....!!!!

2009-06-11T10:16:00.002+05:30

My idea of perfect date is be different for different seasons..

My perfect date in Rainy season would be:

“Long diver on highway....listening something real romantic and just getting completely wet as kids & dancing in the middle of the road njoying rain without caring about this world....”

My perfect date in Winter would be:

“Njoying each others company after a long trek through jungle on a isolated hilltop sitting next to campfire...playing eye game & just completely lost in each other...

My perfect date Summer would be:

“Spending whole day on some isolated beach together njoying...listening old country songs & chilled beer...hypnotized by each others aura...sharing and cherishing special moments together, Moonlight Dinner by the beach surrendered in each others arms & cold water just touching your feet......

My ideas may change but romance won't....!!!!

Identity.......!!!!

2009-05-20T17:53:00.012+05:30

What makes an identity? This question is haunting me since ages, what is that you are identified as and does this identity changes? numerous such questions weaving web inside my mind. The more I try to resolve the more I am trapped in.

I am different for everyone.I am different when I am with my friends so is with colleagues and acquaintances and so different with my intimates. Every time "I" changes. Mostly everyone knows me by what I am with them. But, do they know my real identity? They think they know me, what exactly it means by knowing someone. Does it mean that we identify the person. What makes an identity? We are identified differently at different places and situations. If suppose I am out of my state I would be identified as an outsider suppose a Maharashtrian if I am out of my country I would be identified as an Indian. Then what is my real identity am I maharashtrain or Indian, both.

"I" becomes very prominent. It is said that you are identified by your deeds. But for me the question is what is identification. Even if someone is identified by their deeds don't we recollect some face when that deed is remembered. Then if the deed is the identification what are those faces for. I carry traces of my multiple identity and those traces are again creating an identity of itself. I am too confused with this identity. I feel that our identity changes from person to person. I can't be the same with my boss as I am with my colleagues, a loving husband a caring father a responsible son could be a hated boss then what would be his identity and how would that same person be identified. Who is real he? I think we all have this multiple personality syndrome but still we are identified as some particular individual, that identified individual could be the outcome of one his powerful personality which has an impact on his different personalities and identities.

I am still trying to find which of my multiple personality has identified me....!!!
I always feel that Other Side of Me is More Interesting....!!!

Newspaper....!!!!

2009-05-17T02:54:00.004+05:30

That muddy white paper
had few black alphabets
few photographs and
broken fonts
the title seems
same daily.
synonyms of violence
even blood turning black.
repetitive headlines
hunger poverty goons
and mafias
leading all over
politicians joining them.
A rat race to conquer
to reach the heights
to bypass all.
same thing printed daily
Alignments changes
still eagerly I wait
early in the morning
to read my newspaper....!!!!

Perishing Eve...!!!!

2009-05-11T01:31:00.004+05:30

I see,
the flying birds
every morning.
I wonder,
what do they see
every day.
I hear them sing
returning to their nests,
every evening.
I wonder,
what do they talk
Every night.

The red pool or
dry stream,
the barren land or
the barbwire in between,
the injured brother
or the killed mother
the missing father
or the raped daughter

I wonder,
every night they might
be telling stories,
of the changing Adam and
the Perishing Eve.

Between Dusk and Dawn.....!!!!

2009-05-06T00:25:00.003+05:30

On the edge of dusk and dawn
just before the night ends
and the moment before the sunrise
I want to feel the darkest part
of the passing night.

When the blades
beneath the crystal
appears greener
and the rainbow
emerge through every drop.
I want to feel
the sunrise
before,
the moon goes away....!!!

Waiting for Death......!!!!

2009-04-28T00:38:00.004+05:30

She turned around
glancing a smile
I wondered
the spark in her eyes,
slowly the motion
bought her closer
in the dark dusk
I was aware
of the visible horizon
with the silver line
and vanishing crescent.
memories flashed
of the departed time
changing her smile
to laughter
she opened her arms
to embrace.
growing intimacy between
unbearable separation
I was desperate to reunite.
But, life stood in between
Taking my breaths away....!!!

The Water.....!!!!!

2009-04-23T00:42:00.004+05:30

Which land is mine
what is my religion
crossing boundaries
breaking fences
I pass every region
I am not
an intruder.
no race
no cult
neither rich
nor a poor
I belong
to everyone
I am colorless
I am calm
Yet I am turbulent
You all belonged to me
and now I belong to none
I am indispensable
The Water....!!!

The Vantage point....!!!!

2009-04-06T03:18:00.004+05:30

I am able to see,
my lost vision
I speak words,
meaningless.
River of turbulent thoughts
flowing in my veins
I am heading towards
a vanishing horizon
I am trying to reach
The Vantage point....!!!!

I and me...!!!

2009-04-02T14:29:00.000+05:30

I and me
were fighting
neither I
nor me
understood
the reason why?
Me proposed
and I denied,
the fight continued.
I moved ahead
me pulled back
me moving ahead
I hold it back.
and the fight continued
who is strongest
I or me
both call themselves
the supreme
nor I bend
neither bend me
both are ready to break
ego is winning.
I and me
are still fighting...!!!

The Melting Candle...!!!

2009-03-26T01:04:00.004+05:30

let the candle burn
to spread light around.
you cant save it
it has to melt
to the extent of
disappearing.
few traces would be seen and
you will remember,
while it was melting
you were away from the dark.
Look another candle is waiting
to melt away...!!!

Miles Apart....!!!!

2009-03-21T23:55:00.003+05:30

Three windows,
One door,
Four walls.
unknown faces,
living together,
miles apart,
under one roof....!!!!

He laughs at me....!!!

2009-03-02T03:10:00.000+05:30

He is laughing
at me again.
I am trying to avoid,
the penetrating gaze
piercing my soul.
I am aware
of my deeds.
But, still he want me
to realize.
I am ignoring,avoiding
but cant escape.
And he laughs again
It happens everyday,
I see the wicked curve
on his ugly face.
I am the reason
for his smile.
I bought that mirror,
to see myself
everyday...!!!

The last farewell...!!!

2009-03-01T01:45:00.004+05:30

I am still standing here,
between wishes and desires
with an unknown fear
still fighting,
with my will
to bypass,
those arduous moments.
Trying to vanquish
the last farewell...

I am Mute....!!!

2009-02-25T13:17:00.002+05:30

I am mute,
since many years.
not uttered even single word,
chatter box is what,
everybody has tagged me.
But still,I am silent, quite, calm
and mute.
I am unheard;
I haven't spoken to myself
since the years I have grown.....!!!!

You will surely hate me for this...!!!

2009-02-21T23:46:00.001+05:30

Fuck…fuck…fuck you Bastards’…!!!!
Yes I am so much angry with the stuff I am facing daily.
Surrounded by hypocrites, I can’t tolerate them, but have no other choice than to see the happening around. Motherfuckers, think that they are the only one who are capable of doing stuffs, pretending to be the handworkers, balls. I know this post will be vey objectionable. Who cares? If you ever have any objection I have only one thing to say, FUCK YOU…..!!
Never in my blog I had used such words before, but now this is my anger pouring out.
With no intention to hurt anyone, I have written these in extreme anger and I am not Gandhi who can experiment and practice non violence.
I feel even if I practice non-violence and ever if my thoughts are violent then I should be called as a violent person.
This post of mine should be ignored if you don’t know me. This post is only for those who knows me and what is going around me “The Hypocrites”
Sorry to say but “Fuck You Bastards…!!!!”

This Spring...!!!

2009-02-19T09:00:00.001+05:30

"Atleast this spring,
when you look out
through the window
and cold breeze blows your hair,
keep your eyes closed.
I know you don't miss me,
But, your eyes always awaits...!"

Today I want it again...!!!!

2009-02-18T00:00:00.000+05:30

Today I want it again,
my kindergarten,
those sweet chocolates
the water bottle
and my pencil box
half broken colorful crayons
and the dirty eraser

Today I want it again
The old football
my school uniform
school's Playground
and the back bench
my 10th grade result
and my old friends

Today I want it again,
My college campus
my hang out
my first crush
my first kiss
on my first 'Date'
The shared beer
and the farewell

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still filling those blanks
there are many things
today I want again

lonely traveler...!!!

2009-02-11T10:36:00.000+05:30

Unexpected turns
on the unknown roads
excite my journey
I am walking down the street
enjoying the moonlight
the glittering stars,
trying to avoid darkness,
of a lonely traveler.

Let it....!!!!

2009-02-03T02:28:00.000+05:30

Now I have decided,
to Let it go, wherever it wants to,
what I ever wanted to stay,
Let it fly away,
what I ever wanted to hold,
Let it run, what I wanted to capture,
Let it live, the way I never wanted
Let it do everything on it's own,
Now I have decided,
to sit and watch
what happens to it....

I don't want you.....!!!!

2009-01-25T14:56:00.005+05:30

Don't keep anything now,
I want everything gone
I want nothing left tonight.

Take my breath,take my heart,
take my soul,rip me off,
take everything away.

It's hurts so deep,
it's hurt so hard,
when I am lost in the past.

Nothing can be done
Nothing can be seen
I don't want to know
where you have been.

It wont be tough for you
it wont be hard
to cut me into pieces
and tear me apart.

To save me now
thats the only way
let my tears find it's way
please take your memories away.
take your memories away

On 29th...!!!!

2009-01-20T02:36:00.004+05:30

On 29th walking with you
at ‘15th x’ late night.
No clouds no drizzle
But still stars were missing,
The moon was unseen.
Now I realized
why people were staring at me
all the glitter
was walking by my side
Since that memorable night....
I am cherishing those memories delight…..!!!

Hope....!!!

2009-01-17T02:01:00.004+05:30

It's all same, the way it was left years back.
Just few more creepers are crawling now.

The stem has grown wider,
and few more branches Re-grown.

The roots too have gone deeper,
penetrating more.

And the leafs are sprouting as usual.
The dust layered on few more green blades.

Still they shine every morning,
With a hope to grow….!!!!

Uncertain Certainty...!!!

2009-01-16T18:11:00.001+05:30

Sometime I hesitate to say,
what I feel
sometime I say what I felt
sometime I am completely
speechless, Calm, restless saying nonsense
and sometime I am in total
Uncertain Certainty....!!!

On that night...!!!

2009-01-08T00:59:00.002+05:30

She walked in and I was not able to understand whether it was lightening or she blinked her eyes. I was hypnotized by her aura. I could find no adjectives to verbalize her beauty, she looked up and her eloquent eyes questioned “do you love me?”

I was speechless. I smiled, I could do nothing more than that. She realized how stupid to ask that was. My cute lady innocently said “I know but I want to hear it every time I see you, every time when you are near, I want to hear it every minute every second and with my every heart beat.” Her magnetic essence and platonic adore fascinated me. I could see those trillion expressions in her deep blue eyes. I could hear her heart beating faster and faster as a frightened deer. Those blue eyes and unspoken emotions averted me to hold her close and I said “Yes, I only love you….!!!”

Her shivering lips made me restless and her gaze was penetrating my soul. The night was getting darker. We both were caught in a storm of emotions, with no way to escape. The chilling cold, blazing appearance and the rain outside. I was scared of the rain and the dark night for the first time in my life. Standing at the window I was waiting for the rain to stop and light to appear. With the night my fear was on the rise. I turned back to see her staring at me. I tried to avoid the ogle before I could realize that my fear is taking over me, I felt her warm breath on my neck before I could utter she smiled, looking into my eyes said “ stupid, I am all yours. I love you too.”

And I was no more worried about the darker night and the pouring rain. I was fearless.

You are the Glittering Star...!!!!

2009-01-05T00:22:00.002+05:30

There are many stars in the galaxy but, only few of them glitters.
Those glittering ones are noticed by all, they are loved by all.
You are one of those glittering stars
you are the most glittering star,
You are the Pole star...!!!

I know...!!!

2009-01-04T01:45:00.001+05:30

I know that you check my blog,
You questioned me why my blog is so empty these days....but don't you realise that my inspiration for writing is not online since ages...!!!!

Someday...!!!!

2009-01-03T00:28:00.002+05:30

Someday you may cry
just as I did,
Someday you may try
just as I did,
Someday you may wait,
just as I did...
someday you may realise
Just as I did...
to love someone,
you don't need a reason,
just need someone
who cares for you
who means when he say's,

I love You.....!!!!!!
I love You.....!!!!!!

Do I know You.....!!!

2008-12-17T00:01:00.003+05:30

I find myself among different people, few known, few unknown, different relations different bondings, I feel as if I know them and they know me, is it?

Many times I find myself lost in the crowd of known people whom I feel I know since ages but sometimes those faces are totally unknown to me…

What is it that brings two people so close, irrespective of whom they are and how long we knew them?

Sometimes you feel as you know the person since ages, whom you have meet just an hour ago and sometimes your age old relation seems unknown to you....

Attachments and detachments are really a mystery to me....

My Own Way....!!!

2008-12-15T17:05:00.003+05:30

This is my own space,
blank, filled,
I build it my way,
I scribble, I draw,
I paint, I repaint,
I write, I erase,
This is my own space

Filled with black images,
some colored Eastman,
few in shades of Grey.

Careless I walk,
I fall, I rise,
I stand, I run,
crossing hurdles,
find myself on same way
I am trying to run away.

This is my own space,
I am building my own way...!!!

Wake Up call

2008-11-29T23:06:00.001+05:30

A wakeup call….!!!
How unsafe we are now in our own land? We can’t even roam freely why a person has to live with fear all the time, and why Mumbai is always targeted. We feel glad after few days to see mumbaikar’s in same spirit and we call it spirit of Mumbai hiding our incompetence. But really do mumbaikars have any other choice rather than to carry on with their work. We face it if not external, it’s internal. We always have to face this terror. Where were this so called cine stars who run a marathon with flag in hand saying “Aamchi Mumbai” where was the Mumbai saver caretaker of Mumbai who claims that Mumbai is of maharashtrain’s did he realized now that it was north Indians, south Indians who came to Mumbai for rescue, so that these political morons can sleep peacefully. don’t he know that the bullet and terrorism has no religion, no face, it only knows death and fear. I feel so pity that we people elect them and then we blame them, we need to blame ourselves
I was wondering whether this time news channels will act the same as usual but fortunately media was pretty much under control.
This incidence has really raised many questions.
How much more hatred is needed to blow up humanity, now I feel it’s time to think to rebel, it’s time for a change now
We don’t have to over come the terrorists but the thought process which is behind them, which makes them.….
Can an individual make a difference, do we need Gandhi or Hitler again or we will fight against this without waiting for a leader....!!!

Blank

2008-11-26T00:33:00.000+05:30

No words,
To pen down
My thoughts,
To express
My emotions.
I hope
You understand
Those blank lines
And my silence too...

Parted lips...!!!

2008-10-18T23:20:00.003+05:30

With those
parted lips
I was,
completely lost,
trying to find
what went away
with the parted part.
still finding,
waiting,
to reunite...!!!

Human Instinct....!!!

2008-10-16T01:21:00.004+05:30

I had a dog
which was very humanly
and my neighbor
used to bark at very evenly
I remember it was taught in school
human is an evolved animal.
But, the beast still reside.
the instinct is still un - evolved
I still wonder,
why the dog wags his tail
when I growled at him.
Probably was getting used to
Human instinct

luminescence and reminiscence

2008-10-15T00:06:00.000+05:30

I was listening your silence
And talking to your thoughts
Dreaming about your dreams
Walking thru the memories past
luminescence of your reminiscence
is still with me
to illuminate my darker times.
still doubt does,
memories light up
the lonely nights.....!!!

No one can ever love you like me...!!!!

2008-10-14T00:00:00.000+05:30

Did you dance with,
the guy that night
looking in your eyes
did he hold you tight
did he took you out
and hugged you in moonlight
did you feel the
same as you used to be
'coz remember,
no one can ever love you like me...

Did he sing? Holding diamond ring
Asked your heart Or what did he do
Having all the fun ever,
did you remembered me
and all that used to be
‘coz remember
no one can ever love you like me...

Did you go for long drive
or walked under moonlight
how you felt when he held your hands
and the cold breeze blew
'coz its for sure and it is true
Whatever your thoughts might be
No one can ever love you like me...!!!!
No one can ever love you like me...!!!!

I am Alive

2008-10-12T00:00:00.000+05:30

It makes me feel alive
When my heart is ripped and
I am left to bleed
It makes me feel alive
When somebody
Crush me under feet
It makes me feel alive
When the boundaries are seen
It makes me feel alive
When someone fights
For those raw weeds
It makes me feel alive
Thinking
I am still alive
Left to fight....!!!

Random Premonitions...!!!!

2008-10-11T00:00:00.000+05:30

Random thoughts
Premonitions
Few questions
unanswered.

Four walls
isolation,
opened arms,
vacant bed,
watching ceiling
with tears rolling down,
speechless.

Whole night I was,
thinking about you...!!!

Freedom...!!!

2008-10-10T00:00:00.005+05:30

Looking up at the sky
to those stars
I always feel
Do they look the same?
Throughout the globe
Do the moon and the sun
Are as bright as they appear,
Does water knows the
Boundaries it flows and
Breeze the crossing regions.
I am in the cage
Suffocating,
Exhausted
Standing at the window
I see the bars.
The birds are migrating
I am inside,
Trying to come out of grave
Overcome the boundaries
And see how it feels
To be free
Under an open sky...!!!

Undressed Thoughts...!!!

2008-10-07T19:00:00.007+05:30

I want to undress my thoughts
strip them off
and let them know
how I feel
when they
turn into memories
and haunt my dreams.
Slowly creeping
they take me away
back to the past
and ask me,
how I feel.
Now, I am rethinking,
trying to recollect,
Myself....!!!

Forever...!!!

2008-10-06T13:47:00.010+05:30

She may hate me
yes it could be
and the love she shower
might show that never
but, yes it's for sure
i'll be in her thoughts
forever...

one day she could flee
yes it could be
and we may depart
might live apart
but, yes it's for sure
i'll be in her thoughts
forever...

and When it rains
she'll miss me again,
though she may not say
thru night and day
but, yes it's for sure
she'll be looking for me
forever...

Please sombody go and tell her
i'll be there for her
forever...
forever...

Wildfire...!!!

2008-10-06T02:07:00.002+05:30

leafs were dread
scared of burning
unaware,
that one day
when they leave
the branch
crackling crushed
they will be
turning
yellow and blue flames
red,
and someone will
name it
wildfire....!!!

Take your memories....!!!

2008-10-05T01:25:00.005+05:30

I won't stop you
you are free to go
in the arms you like
and walk your way.
But do remember
that sweet november
what all we had and
the nights spent together,
those healing touch
we had it too much
and my arms you clutched
Do remember
that moon light
and the autum day.

you can leave me
But do remeber to
take your memories away...!!

Shadow....!!!

2008-10-03T00:00:00.001+05:30

It was my companion
throughout the day
in every light
on every way
sitting standing
next to me
I thought
it will be
the only one
accompanying me
till the end.
But, my shadow
left me at night,
leaving me alone
to search my light.
With the morning sun
it appeared again,
to be my companion
throughout the day....!!!

I am Burning...!!!

2008-10-02T01:59:00.005+05:30

I am burning
like a lamp
waiting.
please return ,
like a storm
I am ready to die.
I want you to
remember me,
fighting darkness
and died
spreading light...!!!!

Where are you....!!!

2008-09-30T12:14:00.003+05:30

where are you,
I have no clue.
I wanna know,
Leaving me
where did you go....

are you gone for ever,
will you return again...
left with your memories behind
I am waiting for you.

Have you found someone
who loves you
more than I do....
now tell me,
where are you?

Still so much.....!!!!

2008-09-30T00:00:00.002+05:30

A warm hug
a gentle kiss.
a cute smile
a short nap
on your lap
trip to dreamland
holding hands
counting stars
thru Adar
a soft talk
a long walk
a secret to tell
and share a fairytale.
memories to cherish
wishes to flourish.
Still so much to do
and you say
we have done it all.....!!!

All I had.....!!!!

2008-09-29T01:00:00.000+05:30

One id,
Two popups,
three messages,
four mails,
few chats,
few replys
one CV,
four comments,
two blogs,
one name,
and few other memories
all I had with me,
waiting for you...!!!

I am Not....!!!!!

2008-09-28T00:23:00.003+05:30

I am not time
to pass away,
Neither the sun
to burn whole day.

I am not a river
to search my flow,
Neither I am dust
that wind can blow.

I am not a memory
that will live
Neither the beauty
that will deceive.

I am not the one
who will survive,
Neither the one
who will only die....!!!

Lonely....!!!!!

2008-09-27T08:37:00.005+05:30

Just to make me realize,
How alone I am,
You all gather here.
But, now I don't
Fear the crowd anymore,
I known, everyone
gathered here are trying,
to hide their loneliness
from themselves,
in some corners
of their heart.
So why should
I hide, my loneliness,
and why should I betray
my own self.
We all are
Alone…!!
Born alone,
lives alone
and will die
alone.
in every walks of life
we only have our loneliness
as a companion,
just like our shadow.

Shadow! That too betrays
Leaving us alone
in the dark.

So, why should I hide,
my loneliness.
From my own self.
I accept the way I am,
Will live the way I live,
lonely....!!!

Smoke......!!!!

2008-09-26T00:24:00.004+05:30

With every blow
the smoke got more whiter,
I was relaxing
every smoke changed
the direction of its flow,
creating unknown faces in the air.
Few questioned me,
few went up in the air,
few were going down the ground,
and few stayed there.
I saw every face
lying on the ground,
butt under my feet and
the ash was removed...!!!

Every Moment

2008-09-24T18:07:00.002+05:30

Every Moment
is unforgettable.......
Every moment
is unbelievable
Every moment
leaves an impact,
Every moment gives,
A reason to smile,
A question to ask and
A memory to cherish
I live every moment,
I live for a while

Wall of the Temple...!!!

2008-09-24T00:00:00.003+05:30

In the village outskirts
stands a ruined temple,
with semi erect walls
still hoping renovation.
Every passer by,
removes a brick to
mend their houses.
and the 'God' sits
under the cracked roof.
I heard new temple
being constructed,
on the crossroad,
they say,
priests house is far away
to perform rituals,
at the old temple.
Few bricks are still remaining,
no one wants to,
mend the wall...!!!

Not Always....!!!!

2008-09-23T00:00:00.000+05:30

Not always you need
reason to live,
not always you have,
smile to thrive.
Not always,
Company you need,
Not always,
Desires are feed,
Not always,
You see the cloud
Not always,
Anger is loud.
Not always,
Happy is joy,
Not always,
Only In pain you cry.
Not always,
A lie is treason.
Not always,
Everything in life,
needs a reason…..!!!

Sometimes......!!!

2008-09-22T00:00:00.001+05:30

The paper was blank,
and I scribbled few lines,
I had nothing to write today,
But, cud not resist lifting the pen.
The indigo sky, seem brighter today,
the moon is unseen,
but stars are in full glint.
Sometimes missing someone
is essential, to know the joy,
of having someone…..!!!

I

2008-09-21T03:34:00.002+05:30

I appear…..!!!
I see,
I like,
I touch,
I feel,
I love,
I hate,
I cry,
I think,
I write,
I read,
I smile,
I climb,
I drown,
I live…
and
I disappear….!!!

Mute....!!!

2008-09-20T02:15:00.002+05:30

I am mute,
with words glued in my throat,
Wanting to express themselves.
No one saw my fears,
None saw my tears,
Neither the smiles nor the grin.
Someday you will realize
The pain of looking into eyes,
And expecting to understand,
The unspoken….!!!

Still.....!!!

2008-09-19T01:31:00.002+05:30

These colors are evading.
And I am fading in black.
Reaching the destination,
Still wanting to walk!
I am lost somewhere.
With my desire to live,
And all my memories flashing.
Slowly, rhythm of breath is changing,
With agony and pain,
I am trying to smell,
The memories left behind.
Still one more breath left,
Waiting for someone to take the agony away….!!

Memory Lane.....!!!

2008-09-18T02:05:00.000+05:30

I avoid walking,
down the memory lane,
while going I am always alone
and way back,
I always have your company,
Haunting my memories....!!!

Eyes Express...!!!

2008-09-17T23:01:00.002+05:30

"Atleast this spring,
when you are looking out
through the window
and cold breeze blows your hair,
keep your eyes closed,
I know you don't miss me,
but your eyes always awaits...!"

Just An Imagination....!!!!

2008-09-17T15:53:00.000+05:30

"Unwritten,
unspoken, undefined.
Nor the end,
neither the beginning.
On the edge,
staring the horizon.
Between dusk and the dawn,
watching the sun,
seeing the moon.
The purple sky,
the green ground,
stars in the water,
Twinkling all around....."

Imagination doesn't ends here ....!!!

Identity...!!!!

2008-09-16T23:55:00.001+05:30

With my introspection
haunting me, I am
lost completely
Standing Lonely,
waiting alone,
wanting to be myself,
questioning
pleading my Introspection
To reveal my identity...!!!

Sorry Seems To Be The Hardest Word...!!!

2008-09-16T01:53:00.000+05:30

It has been months we are chatting now, we know each other so well by now that we never felt we are just virtual friends. we shared everything we laughed together sometimes tears rolled down reading affectionate words, we fought, we smiled, shared our secrets, our nightmares, our dreams as old school buddies only thing missing in those conversations was our mass body which was miles and miles away from each other but still every conversation left me with a feeling of talking to a old buddy.

But our today's conversation made me think, thanks to my virtual friend. She casually asked me "what are your plans for the day?" "No plans!" I replied the same way.
"don't you think you are living a boring monotonous life these days?" she asked her next question. "well can say so, actually I don't want too,I don't have friends" i reciprocated" the conversation was getting bit fiery she was trying to prove that I have lost my friends and I am missing them. And I was telling her that i don't believe in friendship. " I don't want to talk to you" she said, " why, may I know the reason?" " thers no reason just I don't want to talk" that's all she said, I tried to carry on the conversation, initially I thought that it was just our routine fight which we used to have every next day but, she dint respond and first time every someone not responding bothered me. I don't know why? is this friendship? or am I caring what my virtual friend said. I don't know what bothered me but the conversation kept me awake whole night, Making me realize that I have really left my friends far behind. I am still not able to understand how did it happen.

" I am sorry friends for everything what I did, which I shouldn't have and for everything which I didn't which I should have"

Forever....!!!!

2008-09-15T00:54:00.000+05:30

I wish that night lasted for ever.
Its all same again,
you've gone,
leaving me lonely,
I could still see
the creased bed the wrinkled pillow,
thinking, don't you miss
the warmth of the night,
the embracing, cuddling
and the intimate fight.
Now I will be spending
sleepless nights,
thinking about you,
waiting for you to return,
I am waiting,
With my arms wide open,
to embrace you once and forever...!!

We Met Again....!!!!

2008-09-15T00:01:00.000+05:30

Under the banyan tree,
today we met again.
We spent hours talking everything,
with our fingers interlocked,
siting close to each other,
we spoke nothing...!!

There Will Be Blood....!!!!!

2008-09-14T22:06:00.000+05:30

Hearing the knock at late mid night, bit surprised I opened the door, to see an innocent face standing completely painted red in blood. Astonished I asked him his identity and he said "I am human". I was not able to believe and asked “if you are human, why are you in blood and why I am not able to recognize you.” He smiled and said
“I don’t wear a mask like all others do that’s why probably you are not recogzing me. This is how human looks today, but no one cares to ask reason for blood everyone is in blood, but if we don’t care one day the whole world will be red.”
Chillax dude these dialogs don’t work these days, think something else….!!!
There was sudden light on stage and director came running. Yelled and said “we are not here to preach”
I walked away giving my mask in his hand…!!!

Pinch of Love

2008-09-14T20:31:00.000+05:30

"what a beautiful evening,
with a pinch of love
and lots of pain,
clouds are crying
and we call it rain"

A cup full of Ocean...!!!!

2008-09-14T01:04:00.000+05:30

A cup full of ocean,
A ocean full of emotion,
drops dripping and
rolling down,
I am saving myself,
from the tides of questions,
the emotions ask.
Every tide I escape,
questions me more,
about my instinct.
I have stopped,
holding cup in my hand,
each cup carries an endless ocean...!!

One Day....!!

2008-09-13T19:40:00.000+05:30

One day I want to sleep,
keeping windows open,
I won't lock the doors,
neither of my house,
nor of my soul.
I want to see
what night can take away from me,
Leaving me behind,
waiting for the sun....!!!

Love me lady

2008-09-12T10:43:00.000+05:30

Oh! Baby just love me baby...
Love me baby, make me crazy...!

Hit me harder, hit me more,
hit me deeper, to the core.
Hold me closer, make me cry,
touch my lips, make me shy.

Lift me up, make me soar,
love me baby, I want it more.
Feel me deep, feel me high,
hold me up, and make me fly.

Oh! Baby just love me baby...
Love me baby, make me crazy...!

Oh my lady, hold my body,
let me collapse in your laps,
I am incomplete without you.

Don't you know what is love,
I don't know how to show.
I love you for no reason,
you will be loved in every season

Oh! Baby just love me baby...
Love me baby, make me crazy...!

Please don't go away.....!!!!

2008-09-09T11:54:00.000+05:30

You are so unseen, untouched,
yet I feel your warmth,
with every breath I take.
I wanna know,why is it so,

I see you everywhere.....
I see you everywhere.....

I wanna hold you,
tight in my arms,
look deep in your eyes and,
I wanna say,
I've been waiting for you,
all these days,

Hold me closer,touch my skin,
feel my breath,speak that all,
what you wanna say,
be mine for ever...

Please don't go away,
Please don't go away.......!!!!

I am waiting for you.....!!!!

2008-09-06T18:15:00.000+05:30

When there won't be light,
and the darkness surrounds me,
I will be standing isolated,
waiting for you...
I know you will arrive.
My princess won't betray me,
we will reunite.

My love will leave me,
I am aware of it.
she was never mine,
she can never be.

I am just away from you,
missing you, but I know,
you will come.

Come embrace me.
Death, I am waiting for you.....!!!!

An Intellect....!!!!

2008-09-05T01:58:00.000+05:30

with my bare body,
I walked closer to her,
the water was calm,
ocean was ready,
to embrace me.....!

slowly the sand kept moving,
and water touched my waiste,

Memories flashed, I saw my stripped soul
I was now ready to surrender myself.
sudden was a wave pushing me to the bank.
then I decided to fight my life....

I now had a shield, to protect my soul,
a passer said, " he is an intellect"...!!!

Words

2008-09-04T18:05:00.000+05:30

My words went unspoken
when we met that rainy day
your words made me speechless
and my silence had a lot to say.

I got Internet connection......!!!

2008-09-02T00:19:00.000+05:30

Monday, 8:30 a.m. woke up, switched on the computer, it was booting, brushed my teeth, grabbed tea. By the time I completed my morning activities, computer is on. logging into onto gmail, checked scraps on orkut and the postings on wall of facebook. Checked comments on my blog.
By this time water is lukewarm and I went to bath, I could hear the songs in bathroom a hard metallic rock, my cell phone buzzed, it was a text message. carrying my whole wet body, picked up the phone, and read the message. Now my playlist is playing
"subha hogayi mamu" from superhit album Munna Bhai M.B.B.S and it is start of Monday....!!!
Reached office by 10:15, escaping and saving myself and finding way thru the inhuman traffic managed to reach in single piece.
Opened firefox, logged into official email account, gmail, orkut, dhingana followed respectively. Nothing was new after weekend, only had few new mails to answer. I was ready for the days work, which was; working online...!!!!
I am into online media.
My days tasks is known to me and I knew how much time will it take to accomplish it, so I had no pressure, which is the best thing one can have at their workplace.
Started completing my work, by the time I already had few scraps of my friends on orkut, few invitations of the online communities. My roomie poped up saying "Goodmorning dude" I replied the same. Probably he might have woke up now and started the computer as I do. I continued with my work. Checked the profie of beautiful chick on orkut, she was recent visitor to my profile, by lunch time we were chatting on Gtalk.
My other online friend logged in by now, I was waiting for her as I was very curious to know what she did on weekend...! as she always have stories to tell and I love hearing them.
My phone ranged it was my friend saying " Hey check the mail I have sent you and plz reply ASAP" , I hanged up saying "OK".
Nearly half of my task was over by 3:45 PM so I was bit relaxed and was surfing and chatting with my friends, few of them were old, few were new and few I dint even knew few hours back and with few I was flirting.
I replied my friends mail, it was about paying the room rent, as we had not met since last week because of our working schedule and lifestyle.
It was tea time ( I prefer tea). After a refreshing cup of tea came back to work and started completing the task. I dint reply to any of instant messages they were popping up. I wanted to complete my work ASAP so that I can leave early and grab some chilled beer, someone said that its fruits time then I realised it's 6:30 PM and thank God I was on the completion of my task. The moment I wanted to get up and go out for fruits, gtalk window popped up
" Hi, how r u?"
I was waiting for this message since last night. I decided not to have fruits today and replied
Me: Missed you
XXX:ohhh...really
Me: do you think I am lying
then the conversation went on till the time my colleague came and said that he is leaving. I had no other option than to logout because he drops me home. I asked my online girl to be online after an hour as I will be going home now. She agreed.
I dint had fruits, I left with my colleague by the time I reached home it was 8:30 PM the first thing I did was switched on the computer logged in to gtalk
Me: "u there?
I am back"
and went to change till the time I came back I cud see her message
she was angry as I dint reply,
and I had forgot to say BRB b4 I left for change. It took me half an hour to make her understand...after so much of honey talks she agreed. and today for the first time she agreed to send me her pic, which I was more curious about. I had no word to say when I saw the photograph she was a real babe....!! in fact I was not able to believe that it's she, but my doubt went for a toss when she was live on webcam in next few min...!!
My phone ranged, it was my friend and he was asking me to join for a beer and he wanted to talk to me..I refused saying that I wont be able to join for beer as I am managing someone for Saturday night disc entry and we can talk online whenever you wanna talk...he hanged up without uttering a word.
It was since last three weeks we had not met he stays two lanes next to my apartment. And it has been a month I got internet connection at home, thinking that
I will be accessible to everyone anytime...!!!

Kahani Puri Filmy hai.....!!!

2008-08-31T17:56:00.000+05:30

I am a movie buff,
being a true cinema freak from a small town,
I grew up watching Bollywood films till the time I realised that all the films I had watched had one of the following dialogs to say....!!!

Long Live Bollywood...!!!!

*"nahi, tum jhoot bol rahey ho.
Aisa nahi ho saaktaa....
keh do ki yeh jhoot hai"
*Bacchhhhaaaooooooooooo....... !!!!
*Chawbees ganthe tak hosh nahin aaya to .....
*Nahiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*Doctor: I'm sorry, hum kuch nahin kar sakey.
*Hey bhagwan....!!!
*Inhe davaa ki nahi dua ki jaroorat hai....!!
*Aaknyein kholo Maa..Dekh mai aagaya....!!
*Tum paison se sabkuchh khareed saktay ho....lakin mera pyar nahin.
*Main tumharey bachhay ki maan bananey waali hoon.
*Bata kaha mu kala kar aayi...!!
*Ye kiska Paap hai..!!
*Mera baap kuan hai maa...!!
*Kuttey kameenay main tera khoon peejaoonga.
*Abb mai aagaya hu na sab thik ho jayega..
*Jyaada hoshiayari karne ki koshish maat karna.
*Hum eenth ka jawab paththar se dengey.
*Agar Maa ka doodh piya hai to saamne aa.
*Gabbarrrrr....!!!
*Nahin chhodunga tujhe. Jaan sey maar daaloonga.
*Maa!! Sab kehte hai ke tum yek vaishya ho !
*Bhagwaan pe bharosa rakho. Sab thik ho jaiye ga.
*Ye haath mujhe dede thakur.
*Munni bai, Thakur saheb aaye hai.
*Woh ek gandi naali ka keeda hai.
*Ek phooti kaudi nahin doonga.
*dafa ho jaaa mere samne se...!!
*Zamaane se thokar kha-kha ke ye dil paththar ban gaya hai.
*Hum aapke hia kaun....!
*Ye sawal puchne ka haq tumhe kisne diya.......
*Boss, maal versova beach pe theek bara baje aayega.
*Tumne yeh kiya, to mujhse bura koi nahin hoga.
*Woh kutte ki maut marega.
*Tumhare paas itne paise kaha se aaye...!!
*Har Kutte ka din aata hai...!!
*Mere piche police lagi hai....!!
*Bhag dhanno aaj Basanti ki ijjat ka sawal hi..!
*hiheihyeeee.......!!!
*Mujhe apni godi me sulade maa...!!
*Yeh tune kya kiya....!!!
*Aapke pair jameen par mat rakheye...!!
*Mera intajar karna....!!
*Tum mujhe bhool to nahi jaouge.
*Ye duniya badi jalim hai roopa...!!
*I hate tears...!!
*Babu moshai......!!!!
*Chalo bhaag chalte hai...!
*Kya tumhe mujhpar bharosa nahi...!
*Mane kaha tha na...kaha tha na tumse....!

Picture abhi baki hai dost......

Networking Nomad....!!!!

2008-08-29T18:44:00.001+05:30

As times are changing and everything getting technical and everyone getting tech. savvy how can tribes and people remain the same.

Yep they have changed and I too have changed with time I have become a networking Nomad...!!!

I define networking nomad as person who surfs thru online profiles of unknown people pretending to find his/her lost friends and get friends with those unknown people forgetting about the one he/she was searching for.

Ya know it’s confusing but, you cant deny this.

I was not much aware with internet few years back. I still remember when I used to sit next to my friends whole night seeing them chatting online.
They talked everything. Few of my friends were in love with their online mates whom they have never seen or met, interesting!

I could do nothing well I was a rustic for them as I knew nothing about internet nor did was I know to their sophisticated, polished show off vocabulary with and urbane accent.

Time changed and I learned how to shut down the computer, as once my polished friend laughed at me because I was not knowing wether to right click or left click the mouse button.

I too wanted to do all those things which were happening around me late nights online.
I was in college now and I had my id and got access to internet late nights. here I realized that time is your best teacher. one fine day ( rather late night ) I was logged in and chatting to someone from other part of the world chatting for few more days made me feel the same as few of my friends felt long back about someone.

That was my first date of digital medium I was dating online.
and today I am into online media and Internet marketing where I think one has to be networking nomad to excel.
Last week I heard my friends saying “check his profile on orkut, he is a self proclaim flirt.”
and the most funniest part of it is today I am dating my friends girlfriends online....!!

The same who laughed at me, years back.

Yes, I am Turned into a so called Self Proclaimed Flirty Networking Nomad....!!!

Brutal Silence......!!!

2008-08-28T00:21:00.000+05:30

walls around, will tell you
story of my survival, without you.

It was not easy to forget,
Wounds of your memories and,
I remember every smile,
every word your eyes said.

your shivering lips, unspoken emotions,
never allowed me to say
what my heart wanted to,
and you never understood
what my silence means.

I then decided to stay calm,
and let you realise
how brutal silence is....!!!

Now walls around you, will tell you
story of my survival, without you.

Digital Break up

2008-08-27T00:36:00.000+05:30

Both being Tech Savvy we decided to Brake Up Online
And I lost Her....!!!!!

Me: If you know how to block someone in Gtalk list please block me or let Me know how to block I will block ur id... I don't want to spoil my mood seeing you online each time I log in....! Sorry to say but I feel I am very unfortunate to know someone like you...And yes I am rude purposely this time....Please do the said I will be very thankful to you....!

She: don't try to fool me yaar
I know its April Fools day

Me: I don't fool someone who is a fool already
please don't msg me back
I Mean it

She: shut up yaar

Me: please block, if u have doubts you can check ur orkut account I have deleted u from my friends list and even deleted my scraps your scrap book
I think this is more than enough.....!Please block
never ever seen someone like you and don't even want to know any1 like u anymore

She: relax yaar
u cant fool me so easily

Me: check orkut account
1nce its mistake and done twice is an intentional deed

She: I don't have time for this crap

Me: and u know me very well

She: go n fool someone else

Me: I have very good and better things to do in my life rather than fooling person like you I have a better choice

She: then do that, don't bother me

Me: sorry to bother you but can't resist the irritation of seeing u online in my list

She: ur wish
I m blocking u

Me: thanx a lot

She: ok fine...bye

Me: bye

She: I really don't understand what is wrong wit u?

Me: nothing is wrong with me, I have understood the reality of human psychology that's it

She: I don't know what to say

Me: there is no answer to truth and facts

She: u there

Me: Ya

She: really it hurts yogesh

Don't behave like this If u don't want to talk its ok

But if u talk don't behave rudely

Me: hahaha…!!! What u know what pain is

U r talking about hurts

She: what have I done to hurt u

Me: She please don't be childish now

She: u r being kiddies

Me: remember, everything is not to be taken for granted

She: u don't need to me tell that

I never take anyone for granted

ya people don't hurt Me but u definitely do

Me: may be......!

Sorry for that but I can't help it

She: u can but u don't want to

Me: sorry I don't want to keep anyone under illusion.

She: take care

n whether u believe it or not

Me: u 2

She: I care a lot for u

I mean it

Me: sorry to say but stop doing that

Thanks 4 all whatever you have done for/to me Till now

She: I swear I hate u Please don't talk 2 me

Please don't If u hate me so much

Me: am I talking?

She: then.................I don't want to talk to u n hurt u more

Not everyone is like u

I don't hate my friends No matter how much they hurt me

Me: there is no one in this world called as friend...

She: may be not for u

n I don't want to discuss it any further

Me: accept this fact and be happy forever

She: please for Gods sake shut up

I am sorry I initiated the conversation

Me: Learn to accept the truth dear it's for your benefit

She: u don't need to worry about my benefit

I can take care of myself

Me: that's gr8 that means you are grown up now,

Good I am happy.

She: yes I am

Me: So my work is done now. As you can take care of yourself

She: did you care about me?

Me: I don't know, ask yourself

She: whatever

Anyways

Just take care

Me: u 2

She: bye

And.......

Me: Good bye Take care

Silence....!!!

2008-08-24T17:21:00.000+05:30

I was searching silence,
searching all around...
asking everyone will I ever find,
silence of my kind...
no one had an answer, had nothing to say...
we all were walking, on the same way...

I was searching silence,

searching all around...

I went to Mecca, I went to temple,
I sat down there, I started to pray,
churches rang their bells,
the same old way...
I could not find, silence of my kind,
what I was searching all the time...

I went to the grave yard,

where I found silence all around...

I found my silence,
three feet below the ground...!

Independent India

2008-08-16T13:22:00.000+05:30

15t August, 2008. 61st Independence Day of our loving great country India.
I was just thinking how independent we are?
Freedom means nothing left to loose and what does independence means?
I was returning home and saw a child selling tricolor on the street and i just smiled I thought for a moment that, does the kid knows what that tri color is what those colors means....!!!
we call ourselves independent, free, but than why is so that a child who is suppose to be in school has to sell Tricolor on the street.... isn’t he a part of Independent India or does he not know what freedom is, or we are not free to tell him....!!!
I saw few people buying those flags from him again I smiled because I knew where most of those flags will be next morning...!!!
Why is it so that only on national holidays especially on 15th Aug and 26th Jan we think ourselves as patriot....!!!
Only I question I have is every soldier a patriot, or is ever patriot is a soldier?

Who I am I.....!

2008-08-15T00:07:00.000+05:30

Who Am I?
I was born in the past,
I'm surviving the present, I'm as immortal as the future.
Am I the unspoken truth or am I the accepted lie?
Who am I? Who am I?
I'm the story told, I'm the mystery that unfolds,
I'm the irony of time and I'm the myth of life!
I Am the one who survives the hours of time.
Who Am I? Who Am I?
I'm the puzzle pieces fused together, I'm the answer to the riddle,
I am the all knowing. Who Am I? Who Am I?
I just AM!
I just AM!

Why is it so...????

2008-08-14T17:33:00.000+05:30

There are few people for some unknown reason makes our living happy, their presence is so joyful and their absence is so painful which cannot be expressed in words.
We know that everyone who has come in has to leave us one day,
but still we fear loosing them,
Everyday ends up with different introductions everyone who has come in leaves an image, some of them leaves a varied image which is truthfully reflected by heart....
Why is that we all want to have everything in life, why are we not satisfied with what we have...
and if we are satisfied will we achieve more...
Is satisfaction a stop for our growth...?
or if one is not satisfied is he greedy....?
why is it so....!!!

The Diary asked

2008-08-14T17:12:00.000+05:30

I have stopped writing diary,
coz last night my diary questioned me,
what do you have today,
to fill my pages...!!!!!!!!

The Mirror

2008-08-14T16:49:00.000+05:30

He ask me questions every night,
how was my day...?

I try to ignore him everyday,
everyday I wake up and decide to answer tonight,

I steal my eyes,
I fear his questions....!!

I have now found a permanent answer to those question
I have now removed mirror from my room....!

I listen to my Heart....!!!!

2008-08-14T16:22:00.000+05:30

This is response to dips post:

"There are times in life when things happen just because....they has to happen for the sake of it.
as we grow older the opportunity does not reduces its we who for the sake of our other conveniences don't bother about it.

and moreover as we grow older we unknowingly start becoming hypocrite..

just think of the days when we all were small kids and used to njoy rain... but now even we want to do we don't....Reason Unknown...

In life whenever there is a situation when my heart and mind collide I always listen to my heart coz it speaks the truth.."

After writing this i realized that I too was killing the child in me....!!!!

Why is it So......!!!!

2008-08-10T01:21:00.000+05:30

Many a times we all might had this experience in our life.....
There are people who will never ever do any wrong to us, not even in their wild dreams but still we are irritated even by their name. whereas there are people who will never ever be good to us...and we fall faor them....we are found of them....why is it so.....no reason....!!!
I am not understanding what this emotion is...!
waiting for time to unfold it and realise me about the emotion....!!!

Strangers.....!

2008-06-06T00:55:00.001+05:30

Sometimes we meet people whom we never knew B4, complete Strangers. We all are strangers to each other once in life. But, sometimes these strangers become so close that we question " were we strangers?"Some relations can't be named and they shouldn't be, let time decide what they should be called, leave it unnamed, Let time find a name for those relations.And sometimes strangers just transforms us.....What Say...........!

What Is Life.....

2008-06-06T00:48:00.000+05:30

I am trying to find this simple answer, What is life...Few answers I got are.....

Life is a stage and we r here to play our respective roles given to us by GOD..........
Life is not a mystery but experience.
Life is to learn from ur own mistakes.............
Nothing!! life is nothing!There is no diff between our life n an insect life!jus 1 dif we knw we live they dont!
Continuity.................Continuity......................ContinuityCircle of the different experience...
There is no diff between our life n an insect life!jus 1 dif we knw we live they dont!How do you know that don't know? They complete their life cycle with efficiency and respond to stimuli.
Life is a stage and we r here to play our respective roles given to us by GOD.....................Really, straight from God? how about those who do not believe in God?Fact is, we didn't have any choice in having this life forced upon us. So, instead of having these exotic definitions of "life", lets just say it as it is.Time period between our birth and death, simple as that.
I just read a poem named CIRCUSin that the poet beatufilly compares life and circus,

THE MANAGER IS THE GOD

the aerobads is like a wind

the golden feast of lion is the bright giving sun

and

the man was compared with the clown

the more he takes risk and performs his work the more he acheives

9. Life is what happens to u,when u r busy planning(and doing) other things.

10. life is somethin which 1st takes exams n then teaches a lesson.....
11. Evolution
12. life is living DEATH. n how can face the death he can face the life.

Will You?

2008-06-06T00:47:00.000+05:30

We call ourselves cultured and sophisticated....!but how truthfully we can answer the questions
Do we really care for people....?
Do we ever try to bring a smile on somebody's face without any selfish motive...?
Does an innocent face of a child begging on the road makes us think...?
What will we choose among Peace of mind and $50 million.....?
answer it.....!

Say It Loud

2008-06-06T00:46:00.000+05:30

JOY, a little Black dog whose jaw was surgically removed after he was almost beaten to death, still looks at humans with love. Joy’s jaw had to be surgically removed after it was beaten half to death by Indonesian construction workers. Joy's lower jaw was dangling and his tongue was hanging out. Joy’s lower jaw was so badly injured that it had to be surgically removed, but its tongue was saved despite having lacerations and blood clots. But, to date, the owners of KIP Group has refused to co-operate. Yeap said FFF was not looking for the government to punish the people who did this to Joy. “Joy may not be able to fetch a ball or toy anymore but he still knows how to show his delight in human companionship,” This is what i read somewhere about the cruelty and had only one question to ask.... Are we Human.....?